EBM v FM @ susu ibu v susu lembu

Peeps....

Macam nak pengsan tgk gambar sapetah dalam mukabuku tgk storage susu dia..weh, bongkak sangat tau....bongkak la bagi pandangan org yg dah hampir kehabisan susu nih..

During my pregnancy, i truly hope that i can breast feed my baby exclusively without knowing how hard it can be....first day of delivery, nurse terus bagi sophia n asked me to breast fed baby..gue dgn kekok n tak tau camne nak pegang baby dgn penuh keibuan berusaha dgn gigih nak bagi first susu tu kat sophia..UNFORTUNATELY ( blame me or blame my lack of knowledge..) i didnt managed to breastfeed her..i have been trying for the whole nite ( beranak tghari ye) tapi satu titik susu pun tak kuar ok...and sophia being sophia menangis tak henggat....habis dia kejutkan baby2 lain dalam bilik tuh...heehehhe..u guys have no idea how frustrated i was, when im not able to feed my baby..rasenya sophia tak minum ape2 until kitaorg sampai rumah Nilai the next day petang..kesian takkk...i remember clearly, time kat hospital, i was trying really hard to picit and urut2 but susu ilek...

No choice, sampai Nilai beli formula ( deep down i was crying, sebab hasrat murni nan indah utk exclusive BF baby sudah musnah pada hari kedua...)mula2 beli kotak kecik konon nak try aje n sambil tunggu susu datang gitu..gigih la mengururt but still no sign of susu..hari ketiga pun camtu, keempat pun..sophia pulak dah syok minum pakai botol...rasenya hari ke 4 or 5 tgh2 dududk tgk tv tibe2 baju basah lencun..yeayyyyy susu dah kuar..sukeeee sgt..but again unfortunately, sophia tak pandai direct BF, paksa dia bagai nak rak tapi dia susah sgt n i think dia dah addicted with botol susu and formula...padan muka akak..so kisahnye lagi during the confinement period ok jugak la sophia dah pandai sikit direct BF tapi kisahnye susu memang tak byk...minah sophia nie pulak asyik la nangis tak cukup although when i read some article ade yg cakap susu yg kite produce memang akan cukup for our baby..kite aje yg rase mcm tak cukup...tapi hello,,boleh ke kau tahan kan kalau anak kau dah menangis macam kene dera..kau cakap sikit..so akak n hubby pun pasrah la bagi susu formula..

ive tried to pump to increase ( and of kos la kene direct BF jugak to stimulate kan) teh milk production tapi hasilnye amat tidak membanggakan..org pump dua2 belah buleh dapat 8oz sekali pump kan tapi akak sehari suntuk pump pun dapat max 3oz aje..kau tak meroyannn...bile dah start keje pun camtu, memang susu susah giler nak kuar...n percaya tak akak tak pernah sakit sebab breast engorge ke hape..kalau tak pump sehari suntk pun ok aje..

TAPI the worse part bile admitted masuk ampang puteri itu hari....more than 2 weeks kott tak dpat pump ( due the fact that nak pusingkan leher pntak dapat n etc etc) susu akhirnya macam nak ilang begitu saje...lepas dah kuar hospital, still tak buleh kasik lagik sebab makan antiboitik n after that bile nak kasik sophia dia dah tak nak..SERIOUS OK dia tak nak...dia akan mengamuk2 macam hapetah bile nak kasik nenen..sedih okkk..org nak bagi susu khasiat pun tak nak..lempang kangggg

so now, my milk production sgt sedikit haritu pump dpt 1/2 oz ( lagik meroyan..) n skrang bleh tak cakap sebenarnye akak macam dah give up....:(

sorry baby sophie...i have without any bad intention/mala fide deprive your right...
bad mommy bad momy sob sob sob