small calcaneal spur noted on my right foot

ye bende inilah yg telah membuatkan idupku ini kian huru hara..huru hara bile nak jalan di waktu pagi lepas bangun dari tido..........sakitnye macam bise2 di tumit gitu...i've went to Pantai MC for a x-ray last monday n baru dapat tau pasal bende ni lah...tapi kaedahnye kene refer balik pade clinic kat offic nie and unfortunately the doctor is only available on 5th January 2010...terpaksala akak makan pain killer sajorkkk...

serious tak tau ape treatment heel spur nie??? either jap tu surutkan the inflamation, or buying new shoe (s)....last resort would be small surgery to remove the spur permanently...in my case takde teruk sangat sampai kene buat surgery kott...hopefully!

A word sometimes can kill a person, and your word just did....

................heartbroken...........

honestly, idup rase sunyi when no one to share with even just for a nite...and suddenly something strikes my mind...are we like this 10 years ago???? are we always pick up on fighting over a small, tiny thing??? are we?? are we????...and its scared me alot....A LOT!!!!!

..how i wish i never hurt him with my words and how i wish he never hurt me with his...

A journey of happiness...

2 entry in a same day...nampak sgt makan gaji buto..not my fault...boss is not around..yeayyy..poyokah title post ittew..sebenarnye salah title kott, yg ade kat fikiran actually mane tempat lagi yg TERSANGATTTTTTTTT LA NAK PEGIIIII..but financial constraint..kecian kannnn

I have been to several places...Asean countries ade ( tak banyak punnn), benua australia pun ade ( satu tempat sajorkkk, arghh malu nak citer)...lists are as follows:

1) SARAWAK- KUCHING to be exact.....i know i know...malaysia jugak kan tapi the ambience bile pi sane lain bah..ops sorry ckp sabah pulak..pastu bile sampai kene isik immigration form tu yg rase2 mcm pegi negara lain tu..heheheh...went there with my good friend Sarah n melawat other friends..time tu diaorg ni newlywed, Faizi & Hameedah...besttttt sebabnye accomodation free n most of time kite pegi jalan dibawe oleh Faizi..Good host good host! It was hari raye bile kitaorg sampai, n Faizi buleh bawak kamik pegi beraye kat rumah kenalan dia ok!!! sabau ajelah..went to santubong, waterfront kat kuching and mane tah lagi...punye lah tak henggat..do a lot of shoopping...shop till my money drop!!! pegi naik MAS sebab sarah's mom tak percaye kat AA...jap eh akak nak try upload gambau satu persatu nie... ( ha tu gambao dgn Cik sarah, pegi dinner kat mane tah si meedah bawak..gambo lain tarakkkk...)

2) BALI- ..first time pegi over the sea katenya..akak jakun sikit ye adik-adik....office trip..tak kisah la asalkan fully paid...sukenya hatikuuuuu...siap buat performance lagi tu ok! it was soooo much fun and i had a really good time..shopping tak henggat lagi kat sini..almaklumlah first time pegi obersea..over sgt tau..jakun macam ape tah...places yg aku still ingat la, we went to Tanah Lot bukan Tanah rata, tanah rata kat Cameron, Sukawati market ( tempat akak bershopping tak henggat2 tuh)andddd entahhhhhh aku pun tak ingat pegi mane...our hotel betul kat tgh2 Kuta tu so ade satu malam me and the fun gang berjalan kaki sajork masuk Hard Rock...dah la pakai selipar tapi disebabkan sebelum tu kitaorg bershopping kat Hard Rock Hotel tu beli T-shirt2 bagai so dapat 6 pass masuk...akak pakai suar pendek,T-shirt bali n selipar aje yek..tapi bosan macam apetah kat sini kite orgtakde pun menari2 di dance floor itu..duduk kejap aje n blah..jalan kaki balik hotel tapi singgah jap kat tempat kene letup dulu tuh...kan diaorg dah siap bine memorial kat situ, tulis name2 org yg terkorban..but still meremang bulu roma skittt bile kat sini, i tell u...roh2 mereka masih berkeliaran dan menumpang enjoy di club2 yg bersepah2 kat sini agaknye..heheheeh...meh tgk gambo meh..satu cukuplah..
( gambo kat Tanah Lot..feeling2 jadik model gitu, ihiksss



3) Medan- Indonesia.....huk aloh..huk aloh..penat nak mampussssssss jouney ke Medan..bukan perjalanan dari M'sia tu Medan tapi dari airport to lake toba...nak mampossssss lamenya weiiii mcm KL ke Kelantan...pegi ngan K.lang n the group, mak n nabilah..saje aje sebenarnya bawak diaorg jalan2....tapi Ya ampun, the first and the last kottt pegi sini...dah lame pegi 3 hari aje so penat sebab duduk lame dalam bus...first day ke Lake Toba dah la sampai dah malam n hotel kat situ sebenarnye gak horror..betul2 mengadap lake yg amat besauuuu itu...besau punyeeeeee..hee takut kuar naga..hotel macam cap ayam sebabheater takde n suhu aiseyman sgtlaaaaa sejukkk..feeling 2 pegi Europe katenya..second day pegi mane tah ( seperti biasa, daya ingatan akak agak lembab sikit..hotel kat sini ala2 mewah gitu on the way to hetel tim etu tgh remang2 senja dapat tgk matahari terbenam kat celah2 gunung berapi..chantekkk tapi ta mane tah gambaunyeeee...tapi kesian la kan keadaan sosio ekonomi populasi kat sane, ade stu tempat tu tak silap samosir island kott, dah la jauhh kampungnye, so kalau ade org datang diaorg buleh tarikkk kite suruh beli barang..eiiii serammm lagi..kat sini yg aku ingat akak belikan ashtray bentuk tgn kat Bebe..conclusion: nice place tapi disebabkan journey yg terlalu panjang..potong stimmm terussss
...( cruise to samosir Island with my baby sista..baru ingat, akak lupe bawak suar jeans balik Nilai time nie..jadik edan terpaksa bawak suar pendek duk rumah pakai kat medan..haruslah ibuk ku pandang dgn sinis skali....ampunnnn)


Seterusnya..kite merentasi benua lain..ini yg paling jauh la setakat ini:

4) SYDNEY-AUSTRALIA...sgttttttttttttttt best! i went there with sarah (again ) n her mom...in 2008 raye Ke- 6 ( citer pasal sydney, bebe ku itu sure tersenyum2....tak gitu Be)..ini macam ala2 impian ke negara org puteh menjadik kenyataan la..yg ingat sampai aje letak beg mandi n terus kuar..terus pegi Sydney opera House...jetlag semua takde ni..punyelah jakun again macam apetah lagikkkk...wah, time tu dah nak masuk summer tapi angin still sepoi bahasa yg membuatkan badan seram sejuk gitu..ala2 duduk dlm bilik ade aircond sajork gamaknye tapi akak tetap feeling macam sejuk lantas memakai la jacket @ baju dua lapis yg kalau kat KL kalau pakai org kate aku memang gilos kann...been to so many places..hari pertama kedua n ketiga n keempat berjalan sajorkkk...ive been to circular quay, Sydney Olimpic park, Blue mountain, Leura Village, naik bot dari manetah balik ke circular Quay sambil feelng2 macam Kate winslet duduk depan2 tuh..wah bestttttt sgt...time tu currency exchange dalam 2.87 camtu..akak hanye mampu tukau RM 1,000..so dapat la Aussie dollar dalam 400 camtu..belikan la ape2 yg mampu utk semua org ( Bebe n Mama pun dapat something...Be, mane baju T-shirt merah tu tak nampak pun bebe pakai lagikkk..grrrrrr)..bestttt bestttt...nothing more to say except bestttttttt
...conclusion: nak pegi lagik: tapi kali nie nak pegi dgn Bebe tersayang....

....( chantek gambo akak tu..:)


5) SINGAPORE ...heheh ini sebenarnye lebih kurang balik kampung for my hubs' family...neneknye di singapore kan....i lovessss Singapore...lebih kurang 3 kali kott dah masuk sane..nak kumpul duit utk masuk Movie World kat Sentosa which is expected to open in April next year...wah ...cant waittt...conclusion: saye sukeeeee sgtttt...buleh pegi bile2 mase pun..tapi plan ngn sayagn nak pegi hornymoon kat sentosa...ntah bile la tapiiiii


itu ajelah pun tempat yg dah pernah jejak kan kaki...tak kire la kan kalau org lain dah samapi ke benua africa sekalipun ( ye bebe, saye tau abg nak sampai ke Sudan, Dubai bagai..tak jealous pun...hehehehehe)...

tapi tulah satu tempatttt ini lagi yg nak pegi tapi tak tau bile...LONDONNNNNN...i know, melayu tok tok sgt kan kalau dream vacation nak pegi London tapi ade aku kisah..suka atilahhhhhh....nak berase masuk Harrods, nak jalan2 di persisir Thames River, berjalan2 di Trafalgar Square...Kensington Palace..n etc etc...emmmmmmmm

period pain...

ouwch...dah hari yg ke5 pun still sakit perut jugak ker....why ekkk.. i never check or makan ubat tahan sakit or watsoever..i remember asking one of my good friend and hangen tak bile been informed, " tak pernah pun rase period pain"...wahhhhh, ini sudah bikin panas..unlike me, bile time period, adoiyaiiiii sampai malas nak pikir period pain ni ok..needs to deviate this pain to somewhere else skrang....

Well, early this week went for an assessment...sebenarnye utk confirmation position kat IWK nie....alhamdullillah..duly confirmed...although i must say, the wages package here is not as good as working in private sector but in other hand, with all the benefits yg diberi, one and the same thing jugak..Ilham has beeen asking me to drop my Cv kat Petronas..but knowing the career advancement there yg macam agak susah, i said nevermind..hello, who la yg forever nak jadik exec. aje kan..gimme 3, 4 years lagi and let me enhance my skills...then promotion please...senior exec..manager perhaps???? Aminnnnnnn


I did actually asked my boss, the potential la working in this water services industry..takut la wei kalau sebenarnye tak de mase depan yg cerah kan..so barulah tau yg our concession agreement with government will end thsi year, and IWK is in a midst of applying for a operator service license..meaning we will be the only company in sewerage services..nationwide...sole monopoly!!!!!and my Datin Boss said our department tak buley la kecik camnie..kene besau la lagi kan........Aminnn

Ni nak citer pasal lain pulak..mlm tadi kan si busyuk masam tu penat sgt kott, bb buleh tertido sambil2 tgk TV...akak pun mcm nak layan tido jugak time tu..tapi bile teringat tak mandi n wangi2 lagi, dapur tak berkemas n tak cuci pinggan lagi akak tabahkan hati jugak bangun n mandi n buat ape2 yg patut...dlm kul 10.30 camtu akak kejutkan sayagnku suruh tido betul2...terus langkahnye panjang masuk bilik n tidooo..erkkkkk edan kejut tipu2 aje..lantas haruslah akak aje ade kat family hall n meneruskan keje harian ie. mengiron baju n etc....sungguh dan amatlah sunyi perasaan itu...ok i got it, inilah BB rase bile edan tido awal kan...ok learn my lessons perlulah kamu2 sekalian same2 berjaga n tido same ok bile dah kawen nie orelse anda akan memebuatkan pasangan anda berase sgt lonely n bored n macam nak sedih gitu sebab kene duduk sorang...kadang2 lookign back my singlehood time, it was soo much fun and nothing yg i regret but then been married it is sooooooooooo much better..heheheheh..harusla kalau tibe2 perasaan takut sampai time nak tido tu for eg, toleh aje badan sebelah dah ade org@peneman..pastu buleh peluk2 utk menghilangkan rase takut itu..heheheeh...knowing me, pada sape2 yg tau, dulu kat rumah my sista, tido bukak lampu okieyy..akak ni penakut rupenya..haruslah pulak kalau ade jiran2..( mind u bukan sebelah rumah pun..) yg take off, maulah tibe2 aku terbayang2 wajah mereka padehal tak pernah pun ingat sebelum nie..kadang2 mcm mereka-reka saje wajah mereka itu..eiiii serammmmm..bongoks kan...one of the best part been married is when u have someone to accompany u esp di waktu malam...

after been married for almost 2 mths ( next week dah 2 bln..and no im not preggy as yet..trying to conceive though...work hard work hard..:)i just noticed that my husband adalah seorang yg sensitif..very!..yup u cant never tell someone's behaviour gitu unless u live under the same roof...and knowing me again, yg sgt la blunt aka cakap ikut sedap mulut ni kan, memangla buleh menimbulkan sedikit misunderstanding....dear hubby i am really sorry, but sometimes words just slips out from my tongue ( not mouth literally..ahaksss)..hiks alasan kah itu???? im trying really hard here not to hurt him with my words, u know sometimes dgn perkataan sajork u can kill a person u see..i am still in a process of adapting this new life and just hope for the best...for both of us..

Dear Bebe: i love you today, i love you yesterday,i'll love u tomorrow and i will love you forever...jiwang sikit sey!!

p/s: Again, i just nperasan yg contents blog ini adalah sgt random sekali...first para saje about period pain n the rest takde kene mengene langsung..tapi tapi..ADE AKU KISAHHHHHH

bahu & leher yg sakit...

Buat husbandku yg tersayang...Mr. Khairul Faizal..

bahu dan leher saye masih sakittttttt...bagaimane nie?..keadaan ini telah merendahkan atau mengslowkan produktivti saye di office....

ceritenye begini : adalah satu malam tu, i dont know how,anyway, wihout receiving any instruction to urut, cayangku telah dgn rajin meletakkan tanggan nye yg mcm gorila itu ke atas bahu ku yg chomel dan dgn penuh perasaan kasih sayng telah menekan@ atau lebih tepat sekali cubaan untuk mengurut di area bahu dan leher walhal kawasan berkenan tidak langsung mengalami ape2 sakit@sengal...sudahnya tibe2 kawasan bahu n leher berkenaan menjadi teramat sangat seperti tersalah urat gitu..kau tak hangennn ke, cakap sikittt????????...terus akak menjadi tidak ade mood kerana menahan kesakitan yg ntahpahantah dan merasakan diri ini menjadi victim kerana dari keadaan yg sihat terus jatuh sakit....ahhh sungguh menaikkan darah betul!

tapi akak takdelah marah2 husbandku yg mengade2 tunjuk muka kesian tu kan...tapi marah sikit adelah kott..bukan marah per se, pissed off to be exact...

sebijik karipap 60 sen...kau biar betulll

....pagi2 dah buat gue hangen kan....boleh tak pagi tadi beli breakfast n beli 3 bijik karipap RM 1.70...2 karipap pusing 0.60 satu karipap biasa 0.50..amboi amboi..kornag letak ape ha dalam intinye...best sgt sampai nak charge sampai 0.60 sebijik...hanjeng betul! tak redha rasenya time beli tadi...lain kali kan makcik letak harga kat luar biar org ramai tak tertipu ok..nak untung tak hengat2....tapi itu tak termasuk dgn sandwich yg aku beli RM 2.50...total tadi 4.20....bangang tak bangang kan, harga breakfast dah macam mkn lunch dah..ni yg lepas dah kawen dah lame dah tak makan luar..akak lebih rela bangun pagi kul 6am setiao hari dan masak breakfast ok...biarlah katenya tok tok makan nasik goreng hari2tapi kaedahnya nasik tu penuh satu tupperware n buleh letak telur mata lagi ok!!!! memang kalau dah bawak bekal, lunch dah tak kuar dah..senak@kenyang sampai ke petang..tak save gitu...byk buleh save ok....

Yelah dah ade commitment yg buleh tahan besar nie, financial kene jaga sama...mane yg buleh dikawal, dipotong atau dikurangkan kite buatlah...for our own benefit jugak..so basically aku byk jage bab2 makan nie, kalau buleh dimasak atau ditapau ape2 makanan lepas tu sgt la bagussss...eg ayam kite kasik potong 14, buleh 3 kali masak..sekali masak 4 ketul camtu: cost RM 10-12...masak sardin for dinner, pagi esok buleh buat nasik goreng sardin: Cost Rm 4.50...beli mee kuning n fish cake buleh makn either for dinner or breakfast: cost RM 2.80..ha tgk byk tak banyak tu buleh save...rajin dgn tak rajin aje persoalannya..

Wah dah jadik macam hape tah skrang semua nak kene buat advance planning gitu...financial tight skrang so kene la berkorban cikit kan...tak kisahla asalkan tiap2 hari buleh makan..alhamdullillah!!!!

My parents and adik ade kat my crib since sunday haritu, today malam kang kene hantar kat umah sista @ wangsa maju...kene ikut turn la kan...baru fair and square!!!
nanti nie dah biase riuh2 nanti next week balik rumah sunyi aje..berdua aje kami..sunyi yg menromantikkan, buley??? kalau ade baby..bertiga??? tu yg tgh nak conceive nie, tapi belum ade rezeki lagi kott..tak tau la this month..aik we baru kawen 2 bulan 1/2 aje pun...kalau ade amik, kalau takde cube lagi..not really sure bout my hubs, whether he is really hoping for it dlam waktu terdekat nie ke atau tak kisah??? emmm need to ask him later..well some people say jgn stress utk conceive usah nak lekat ( ape lekat2...ingat glu??)..tulah kan..tak stress pun..gua rilex sajorkkk..

ok..the end..nak focus buat keje pulak ni kononya....

sometimes it is best to keep ur mouth shut....

Have you ever encounter orang2 yg perangai macam haram n blunt n cakap tak serupa bikin......buleh kasik hangen satu badan la ni macam....tapi pagi2 khamis nie n hujan tak baik la kite start hari dgn keadaan yg tak best..so org2 yg macam nie kite lupakan saje......ok skrang nak try upload gambo sikit...btw gambo ni takde kene mengene langsung dgn post kali ni ok...apekah tak jadik nie....syaitoonnnnnn..mengapakah gambo terus ke atas gitu..grrrrrrrr sat sat try lagikkkka ...bagaimanakah tak jadik punnnnn